What a year!!!!!

Wow!!! So much going on this year. I have been so caught up with everything else I have had no time to visit with anyone. This has not been a good health year in my family. My mother is going through some worrisome things with her kidneys and I am in the process of waiting on the results of a mammogram. UGH!!!!!

I am not really afraid for me. I am just so scared of having to leave my kids. They have a wonderful father and very strong family support system even our friends are very involved with our kids. It's just the idea of leaving them before the big moments in their lives. I know I am probably jumping the gun but this is the first time I have had a scare like this. I have already berated my husband into taking better care of himself because he has a family history of heart problems and what not. But this is my first time of having to take a look at my lifestyle.

I hope everybody else's year is progressing well. And hopefully my will be on an up swing from here.

It's been awhile.

Wow, I have been so busy. With Anissa playing softball, this time of year is so hectic. Plus I have birthdays and graduations to deal with. I hope everybody is doing well.

Anissa had a heartbreaking end to her softball season. They lost the league championship game by 2 points. But it was a great learning experience for her. We are now going into 2nd round of CIF. Tomorrow we play Crescenta Valley. The last two games have been nail biters so I am hoping this next game will be simple and give a chance to recoup. Everything is happening so fast.

Little Byron will graduate next month on the 14th. I have already asked for the day off because I know that I will be a total basketcase.

June will be busy for us. We will do quite a bit of traveling with Anissa.

Well I hope everyone's life is cooperating with them. Talk to you soon.

Pleasantly Surprised

I was very surprised and pleased to see comments on my blog. Thank you K. I am feeling a lot better these days. I have to go see the surgeon in a week or so to evaluate my gall stone situation. LOL. My relationship is also on a steadier keel. I have never sailed so I am hoping that is a valid comment. My relationship is still a little fragile but I think he got the message after our last run in. I try not to depend on his mind reading ability but I still like for him to discern what the problem is before I have to lay it all out for him. He is actually getting better at solving marital problems. Accepting that I am always right was the biggest lesson he has ever mastered. Ha Ha, just kidding guys.

Well K. I hope you are staying strong and I hope you are pursuing your dreams. This relationship thing can be done. Stick with it and stay true to what you want and need.

Trust & Communication

Trust & communication is everything in a relationship. Without it a relationship can't survive. Well, my relationship is being strangled by both of these issues. I can't possibly communicate with him if I don't trust him. It is such a mess. It is making me ill. I'm starting to think that it isn't my gallbladder but an ulcer instead. Constant stress is not good for the body or soul.

It's been a week

I haven't been back in a week. I haven't felt too good so I didn't want to bother you all with more whining. Easter was nice and relaxing. It was kind of a lazy day with the kids. I wish my Digital camera wasn't broken so I could show more pics of the kids. We colored eggs in the morning and then my husband hid them around the house because it was kind of cool and the kids didn't want to crawl around the jungle we call our back yard. When it is landscaped it looks like a park but right now it looks like something out of National Geographic.

I wrote a comment on a girl's blog the other day. I had been reading her blog most of last week. She was chronicling her break up with her boyfriend. It was like reading the canadian version of my early life with Byron sans kids. Lucky her. Her decisions are just as painful but less complicated. I wrote another comment apologizing for maybe coming on too strong. But She said thanks for the comment. I felt a little better that she wasn't totally offended by my comment.

Gall Bladder Blues

I was so sick last week. I had a gall bladder attack after we went out to dinner. But this attack was different. This time the pain didn't go away all the way. So Thursday I stayed home and was too afraid to eat. I couldn't get in to the doctor until Friday, so I just took it easy on Thursday. Friday finally arrives and I go to the doctor. I still have the pain on and off. The doctor sends me to the lab for blood work and everything is fine. He says my gall bladder will most likely have to come out. He made me an appointment to see the surgeon in two weeks. That is if I make it. He said that they would prefer to do the surgery in 3 to 6 weeks but if I have an attack they will take it out immediately. Great. My life is so exciting. LOL.

I Will Survive. I think.

Oh my!!!!! It has been a rough couple of days. Between the weather and sick kids and there not being enough time in the day to do the things I need to do. I am stressed and frustrated and not to mention angry. Sometimes i feel like a big whiny cry baby. But let's get down to what really set me off yesterday. I have been patiently waiting for Brokeback Mountain to come out (pardon the pun) on DVD. Well yesterday at lunch time I ran to Target and bought my own personal copy of BBM. I was so looking forward to it's arrival. Like any other DVD I expected some very special bonus features. Okay, some deleted scenes would have been nice. Not a one. The Bonus features it did have were just old interviews and the same footage you can see on the internet. I think I had seen every interview already and that's what they put on the DVD. SOOOOOOOOO disappointed. There are a few scenes and lines from the trailer that aren't in the movie and I was hoping to see what didn't make the movie. Nevertheless I do love this movie. I was just hoping for a few new bits of it's beauty that I have been able to drag out of cyberspace. LOL. Maybe they will come out with a special edition with some extra footage. We can only hope.