I have been reading many of the blogs on this website. some are quite amusing and some are even touching. It is nice to see such a diverse smattering of thoughts. I was feeling almost like I was just rambling on about my life and kids but no more. I now feel inspired to be a little more creative with my posts. I want to add more color and pictures. I think I will fill my posts more with daily grind of raising my kids and being a working mother.

Silent Scream!!!!!!!!!!!! I need a mental health day. Thank goodness I have friday off. I have been really struggling with a lot of issues lately. I have been thinking a lot about Karma. Sometimes I feel like I should go back to church but then I feel guilty because the only reason I feel compelled to return is because my life is so screwed up right now. I still pray but I haven't been to church in a while. Then I think maybe I need to be nicer in my life. Do some good for others before good things can happen for me. I am at my wits end, financially and I don't know what to do. I have already filed Bankruptcy and I still haven't felt any relief. But I am thankful for my health and my family and friends. It will come from somewhere, it always does.

The weather has been a real drag. Games have to be rescheduled. That's always a bummer because it has been quite a few days since the girls have played. They need to stay at the top of their game. They can't let up one bit. The pressure is on. But have fun anyway. LOL

And we're off. We just survived our first league game and won 8-0. Whew. I say we because I feel like I am out there with my daughter. The stakes are so high right I could just puke. For one we have a cross town rivalry right now with Kaiser High School. That could be really distracting because the team we have to worry about is Ramona. They are the ones that are flying under the radar right now. There is so much pressure on Anissa to do good too. She is trying to get a scholarship to college. So of course she wants her numbers (stats) to reflect her ability but that doesn't always work out. Example; her batting average is low right now but she is leading in RBIs. So hopefully any coaches out there looking at MAXPREPS will know what to look for besides other teams inflating their numbers.

Well we survived the latest weather. It was rain but nothing spectacular. My daughter's softball game got rained out but not until we were already all soaked. LOL.

More disappointment on the financial front. We just sold our house but we are going to end up with almost nothing after everything is paid off. Everything getting paid off is a good thing, but I was hoping to be able to do some things to the house. Like replace my white (disgusting carpet). Well, I guess I have waited this long.

I think my worst personality trait is waiting and being patient. Hate it. I used to be good at waiting but now it's like I just want to scream if I can't do what I want to do when I want to do it.

TGIF. I made it. WE are gearing up for another storm. I missed the one last week, I was in Laughlin with Anissa for a Softball Tournament. So I am hoping it rains tonight because I don't want to go to Sara's Softball game. I know, I am an awful mother. But I am willing to accept the consequences. My mother has survived after all the crap she put us through. I think my kids will be fine as well. It builds character. What kind of adults would they turn out to be if they didn't have a few parental issues to go to therapy for?

These are all my kids. My oldest is Byron Jr. (the one is the turquoise shirt). Anissa is my Oldest Daughter, that's her with the twins and the dog Benny. And then I have the twins Sara & Jacob. they are eight years old.

It's Like I have two set of kids. The first two are 17 & 15 and then the 8 year old twins. Believe me, I was done at two, but then surprise!!!!!

My daughters both play softball. Anissa is a star at her high school and Sara is just starting out. We are very proud of Anissa for all her hard work and hopefully she will be rewarded with a Scholarship.
My oldest son will be graduating this June. It's kind of a failure to launch thing. He is very intelligent but just doesn't seem to have a lot of motivation. Hopefully something will click soon. But all in all they are all good kids. We'll see where they all end up. LOL

It's Thursday!!!! How is everybody feeling? I don't feel as blah today. I don't think I do. LOL. I haven't read the newspaper yet so I don't know what is going on in the world yet. I did hear a little bit of the news on the radio and none of that was good between car accidents and a guy shooting up a Denny's in Pismo Beach I did hear that Jessica Simpson's Dad poo-pooed her meeting with the President because he was afraid if she opened her mouth it would just be a month of jokes on Jay Leno. Oh to have those kinds of problems. To appear that stupid but still manage to make millions of dollars. I'm doing something wrong. I've focused to many of my years in a pursuit of intelligence.

So here I am. What to say. I've been reading a lot of different blogs the last couple of months. Some were dedicated to certain subjects and some were more random. At first the ones that foucsed on certain subjects appealed to me but I started wondering if I would have that much to say on any one subject. So I finally decided to just kind of drift with whatever is going on in the world or in my own personal world.

A lot of my time is taken up with work and kids. I am sure that goes for most of you out there. It's so hard to find time for all the things that need to get done and still make time for fun. My husband and I made a decision about vacations this year. Every other year we would take a vacation by ourselves. This year we went to Hawaii with all four kids. EEEKK!!! So next year we are going to Alaska by ourselves. That's more his dream vacation than mine but at least I won't be at work. Give me a good book and a nice big drink and you can take me anywhere LOL.